Findings
The findings of this study are the results of 20 interviews with 18 nurses working in the ICU. Table
1 shows the demographic characteristics of the participants. Four categories from data extracted. The three categories with the titles of “carelessness, contextual challenge, non-supportive and unpredictable structure” refer to challenging situations in ICU that lead to troubled conscience. The whirlpool of troubled conscience as the last category refers to the consequences of troubled conscience in nurses. (Table
2).
Table 1
Demographic characteristics of participants
1 | Female | 32 | Bachelor | 2 | Nurse |
2 | Female | 38 | Bachelor | 2 | Nurse |
3 | Male | 35 | Bachelor | 4 | Nurse |
4 | Male | 33 | Master of Science | 9 | Nurse |
5 | Female | 45 | Master of Science | 20 | Head Nurse |
6 | Female | 32 | Bachelor | 9 | Nurse |
7 | Female | 43 | Bachelor | 15 | Nurse |
8 | Female | 42 | Bachelor | 13 | Head Nurse |
9 | Male | 48 | Bachelor | 17 | Nurse |
10 | Male | 52 | Bachelor | 28 | Supervisor |
11 | Male | 28 | Bachelor | 1 | Nurse |
12 | Female | 31 | Bachelor | 3 | Nurse |
13 | Female | 30 | Master of Science | 6 | Nurse |
14 | Male | 33 | Bachelor | 9 | Nurse |
15 | Male | 33 | Master of Science | 5 | Nurse |
16 | Female | 31 | Bachelor | 4 | Nurse |
17 | Female | 41 | Bachelor | 13 | Supervisor |
18 | Female | 58 | Bachelor | 30 | Supervisor |
Table 2
Troubled conscience in ICU nurses
Carelessness | Fatigue Lack of experience Lack of knowledge Error in care |
Contextual challenges | Missed and skip a series of patient cares Painful procedures on patients cover up long-term of patient treatment Ethics dilemmas Advanced equipment and treatment |
Non-supportive and unpredictable structure | Low hospital resources Improper organizational culture and atmosphere Mismanagement Out of control events |
whirlpool of troubled conscience | Annoying feelings Psychological changes Behavioral changes |
Carelessness
Carelessness failure to give sufficient attention to avoiding harm or errors and it is referred to nurses’ conditions such as fatigue during shifts, lack of knowledge, lack of experience and errors in care. In fact, carelessness reflects the negligence of nurses in paying full attention to the complex and critical conditions of the ICU context and lead to the failure of the nurse to good care for patients. The concepts that shape of carelessness ultimately have negative and serious consequences in patient care and nurses reported their experience of these negative consequences as a conflict with their conscience. This conflict of conscience and confused mind ultimately leads to the troubled conscience in ICU nurses.
Participants referred to situations in which, they made mistakes due to fatigue caused by excessive working shifts as well as their lack of knowledge and experience in patient care, and subsequently experienced troubled conscience. In this regard, the participant No. 13 stated that:
“When I was transferring a COVID-19 patient to the radiology department, I noticed that his oxygen level is declining and the oxygen cylinder is empty. The patient critically required oxygen. I started to transfer him quickly for reaching an oxygen cylinder there, but he underwent a respiratory arrest. I had not checked the cylinder and I was careless.”
Participant No. 11 considered lack of knowledge and inexperience as factor that leads to errors in patient care and exacerbated the sense of troubled conscience in the participants. “In my first year of work, I was sent to ICU, where a patient with high blood pressure and heart rate of 90 bpm needed labetalol. I didn’t know it had to be injected slowly. I did it fast and he got bradycardia so he needed atropine. I felt guilty for my ignorance and inexperience. I thought I couldn’t forgive myself if he died.”
Contextual challenges
In this categories participant stated that they do not have enough time for quality of patient care due to the high workload and in many situations do not provide important care for patients who require critical care. They stated that heavy work load, staff shortage and lack of time ultimately lead to missed and skip a series of patient cares as well as missed routine cares, and these cases intensify the troubled conscience in them. Participant No. 15 stated: “Patients will have surgery today and go to the ward today or tomorrow, then new patients will come right away. Heavy workload and staff shortage in ICU make me lack time to care for patients properly. So I skip some patient cares.”
Participant No. 12 stated, at the peak of ICU crowding, routine care may not be provided due to lack of time and high workload and this factors that cause troubled conscience. “Sometimes I fed patients too fast and later saw they didn’t eat. It usually happened in busy times and I forgot to feed them. Missing the patient’s routine care in ICU crowding hurts my conscience.”
For some reason nurses in the ICU are in a situation of cover up. For example, participants referred to the patient’s unconsciousness, patient dependency to nurses and absence of the patient’s family in ICU and they admitted these factors in many causes exacerbated the nurses’ troubled conscience. For example, the participants stated that performing a painful procedure without anesthesia for patients with a low level of consciousness and concealing or cover up the procedures when the procedures were not done well or an error occurred are situations that lead to a troubled conscience in the participants. In this regard, participant No. 8 stated: “ICU patients are often unconscious and alone, so no one sees what you do. The ICU nurse must be very committed and conscientious. Sometimes, patient care is delayed or invasive procedure is done without anesthesia. These things prick my conscience.”
Participant No.15 state the difference between the ICUs and other ward of hospital and mention that cover up in ICU, it might happen. “Most of nursing critical care are not assessed and I can write what I didn’t do. For example, the patient is not conscious to ask me to respect his privacy and his family is not there to tell me what to do. It’s me, the patient, and my conscience. When I see the same thing from my colleagues, I feel guilty for a long time.”
Participants mentioned the long-term hospitalization and treatment of patients in the ICU can be case of troubled conscience. Participant No. 17 states that “Many patients stay in ICU for a long time and their unclear conditions pains me. I see the suffering of these patients every day. They are at the end of their lives and I feel conscience pain when I see they suffer every day.”
Participants identified resuscitation or non-resuscitation of dying patients, end-of-life care, invasive treatment and futile care of patients as ethical challenges and dilemmas in ICU, which in many cases lead to troubled conscience. Participant No. 3 stated: “There is no uniformity in caring for end-stage patients. A nurse gives them their medicines and cares for them. Nurses don’t inject expensive and rare drugs like albumin and meropenem into them, arguing that these drugs should be used for patients who have more chance to survive. I struggle with my conscience when I see such behaviors. There must indeed be an agreement between the physician and the nurse, but physicians shouldn’t prescribe unnecessary expensive drugs for these patients.”
The advanced equipment and treatment that exist in ICU are other factors that exacerbated the nurses’ troubled conscience according to the participant’s statement. Participant No. 16 stated: “There are many treatment methods in ICU, like mechanical ventilation, dialysis, drains, ECMO, PET, CRRT, and more. Some of these only keep the patient alive and are not life-saving. For example, ECMO for a patient with heart and lung failure doesn’t help to save or cure him/her. These advanced treatments only delay the death and increase the suffering.”
Non-supportive and unpredictable structure
Non-supportive refers to management style, culture and atmosphere in ICU and hospital, limited hospital resources like low hospital budget which creates the conditions for shaping a troubled conscience in the participants. These factors create an environment where the nurse feels unsupported and must face challenges alone. In this subcategory, non-supportive factors along with other factors such as out-of-control events that occur due to organizational and management failures lead to enhancement of dangerous conditions of ICU and create an unsupportive and unpredictable structure which effects of nurse’s conscience as a moral asset and lead to a troubled conscience in them.
Regarding limited hospital resources sometimes patients need advanced medical procedures such as vascular surgery, orthopedic surgery, Percutaneous Coronary Intervention and but they are admitted to a non-specialized hospital that it has limited resources. These patients, who are often transferred to the nearest (often non-specialized) hospital by an EMS, contribute to the nurses’ troubled conscience. Participant No. 10, who was an ICU supervisor, pointed to the poor medical resources of the hospital lead to a torment of his conscience.
“The patient needed an urgent PCI and I felt helpless to do anything for him then. We did everything, but he died. I thought if he had gone to a better hospital, he could be alive now.”
Participants state that attention to the organization’s income and disregard for patients’ rights as the result of a negative organizational culture and atmosphere created by conflict of interest, which puts nurses in a position of troubled conscience. Participant No. 17 stated: “Sometimes, patients in ICU don’t need critical care and are there just to make more money for the organization. These are against my conscience as a nurse. The organization is such that you can’t oppose anything, and if you do, you will face challenges.”
Participants also stated that, they were sometimes unable to defend patient’s rights against a more senior colleague. This organizational culture and atmosphere are the cause of nurses’ troubled conscience. Participant No. 1 stated that: “I had a troubled conscience because of my colleague’s mistake in patient care, but I couldn’t do anything. The atmosphere here is such that reporting the errors of senior colleagues doesn’t help, but may get you in trouble, and sometimes you will be called a snitch.”
Participants also referred to inability of nursing management to prevent errors in ICU, and the lack of proper error reporting system as factors that lead to troubled conscience in nurses. Participant No. 9 stated: “We make mistakes and they happen. But the atmosphere here is such that I won’t report errors to the head nurse because I feel that it doesn’t help or solve the problem. They tell everyone and I will be judged negatively.”
Participants criticized the management’s response to the error reporting of staff and referred to the harsh policies and punitive behavior towards the offender. They considered them as factors that discourage them to reporting errors. Participant No. 16 referred to incorrect management methods in error reporting as factors that cause troubled conscience especially when observing the negligence of colleagues. “Our head nurse has a notebook and records the colleagues’ errors, based on which she considers rewards and punishments for the staff. She often punishes the offender nurse with fewer benefits, more shifts, and disagreements with holidays. This causes more secrecy and troubled conscience for me.”
Out of control events such as absent of co-workers and challenge of providing care for patients with less staff and not being supported by the nursing management in this situation, as well as equipment breakdowns and power cuts and decrease the central oxygen pressure are cases that created an uncontrollable and unpredictable environment, and the nurse’s conscience is affected in this context. Participant No. 17 stated that during the peak of Covid-19 pandemic, when there was an urgent need for electricity and oxygen, the hospital ICU was frequently cut off the power and the patient’s central oxygen pressure was low.
“Due to a problem in the hospital’s electricity system, the power was often cut off. All ICU devices work with electricity. The power cuts off here and the emergency power comes on too late. Meanwhile, the alarms, worry about patients’ hypoxia, and the shutdown of devices torment my conscience.”
Whirlpool of troubled conscience
The whirlpool of troubled conscience was identified by nurses as bitter experiences of troubled conscience and also as a consequence of troubled conscience. These experiences refer to the painful and negative emotions with psychological/behavioral changes that result from a troubled conscience. Painful and negative emotions are caused by feelings of guilt, fear, sadness and helplessness. These feelings bring with them constant psychological and behavioral changes such as fretfulness, confused mind, nightmares and walking and talking to oneself. Participant No. 12 in this regard stated that, he has suffered a troubled conscience due to her mistake in patient care which has led to feelings of guilt and sadness. “…” After that incident, I was tormented by my conscience for a long time. I felt guilty and upset in my heart because of the mistake I made in patient care.”
Participant No. 6 shared experiences that indicated fear following troubled conscience. He was tormented and moved away from that position, because the physician doing the invasive procedure a patient without the use of local anesthesia.
“The patient needed a chest tube. I was with the physician as a nurse and saw he didn’t use local anesthesia while inserting it. I saw the patient’s hemodynamic indexes changed and he suffered from pain. After that, I’m really scared of the same situation.”
Participant No. 16 talked about the nightmares caused by the troubled conscience and stated that, at times when the patient’s treatment and care do not meet the required standard, he experiences nightmares that deprives him of a good night sleep.
“Sometimes, an error happens in the caregiving process, or the care is not standard enough. Those things make me have nightmares and lose good sleep.”
In addition to psychological consequences, troubled conscience also caused behavioral changes among nurses. These changes were in the form of walking and talking to oneself. Participant No. 15, for example, stated that:
“Sometimes, I feel guilty after work and I walk the whole or part of the way back home, during which I usually think about the day’s events and the shortcomings at work. These hurt my conscience. Once, I was having such thoughts while walking, and then realized I was talking to myself. Of course, I tried to reduce the negative burden of conscience by walking.”