A total of 40 respondents were enrolled, and the number of respondents at each phase was 7, 12, 11 and 10, including 25 males and 15 females. The average duration of diabetes was 13 years. The general characteristics of the study respondents are presented in Table
2. The themes in the interviews are presented in Table
3.
The pre-surgery phase: complicated emotional reactions and inadequate coping skills
Fear and worry
In DR fundus haemorrhage, the patient’s sudden blurring of vision and the floating of black shadows in front of the eyes cause the patient to experience fear, anxiety, and other negative emotions.
A2: ‘One day I woke up and my eyes suddenly went blind. I didn’t realize the haemorrhage was so severe.’
A5: ‘When I got up to wash my face, I found that the cobwebs inside my eyes had fallen out. I was scared to death.’
Vision loss caused many inconveniences in the working lives of patients with DR, such as difficulties driving, walking, using WeChat, injecting insulin, etc. This intensified patient anxiety.
A3: ‘Last time I almost hit the old lady, so I am afraid to walk alone now.’
A6: ‘I can’t see with my eyes. I can’t do anything.’
Regret and self-blame
In the early stages of diabetes, many patients do not know or believe that diabetes can cause diabetic retinopathy, diabetic foot and other related complications, and do not realize the importance of diabetes glucose management. When vision is impaired, patients with DR begin to regret their previous behaviour.
A3: ‘I didn’t know regret until something went wrong with my eyes. I regret that I didn’t look at my eyes earlier.’
A6: ‘It may not be so serious if it is controlled at the beginning.’
A7: ‘Why didn’t I control it before? Why was my mouth so greedy? Why was my self-control so poor?’
Shadow and daunt
Some patients with DR have undergone multiple panretinal photocoagulation (PRP) and anti-vascular endothelial growth factor (anti-VEGF) treatments before being treated with vitrectomy.
A1: ‘The two eyes have already been injected several times, two or three times, and the PRP treatment has been done several times.’
The repeated PRP treatments and the pain associated with the PRP usually cast a psychological shadow on DR patients, making them fearful of subsequent treatments.
A2: ‘When I had PRP treatment before, I felt a little scared. The cloth came up in layers and just showed you an eye.’
A5: ‘I’m definitely not doing PRP treatment. The eye is like being gouged out. It’s more painful than giving birth. I give up on the left eye, I’m still left with that one after this one goes blind.’
The post-surgery phase: the increased uncertainty
Physical discomfort after surgery
The treatment of choice for DR is usually vitrectomy followed by insertion of either a gas or silicone oil tamponade. The procedure utilises local anaesthesia. After the procedure, the anaesthetic effect wears off and patients complain of eye pain.
B5: ‘I want to lower my head a bit, my eyes are not very comfortable, my eyes are swollen and painful. The whole procedure is also very painful. I feel like my eye is bursting open.’
B8: ‘The whole eye is going to explode, now the pressure of the eye is so heavy, as if a mountain is pressed, the eye cannot open.’
Surgical trauma and elevated intraocular pressure (IOP) are the main factors causing postoperative pain. Additionally, if gas or silicone oil is filled in the eye, the patient usually needs to maintain the head-down and side-lying positions alternately after surgery. A prolonged prone position will cause pain in the patient’s head, chest, abdomen and extremities, compress the eye orbit, affect blood circulation and aggravate eye swelling [
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B10: ‘I never thought I would be like this after the surgery. I couldn’t eat, I want to vomit, and my blood pressure is still high. So, I am in a bad mood. I am told to sit during the day and lie on my side at night, I am so tired. My eyes are swollen and cannot be opened.’
Uncertainty about disease prognosis
Due to the filling of gas and silicone oil, DR patients will not have a significant change in vision immediately after surgery compared to pre-surgery. Meanwhile, those who have had silicone oil injected need a second surgery to remove the silicone oil. The uncertainty of the time of the second surgery and the uncertainty of the recovery of vision will increase the patient’s uncertainty about their disease prognosis.
B1: ‘I don’t open my eye. I worry whether it can open. I always expect my eyes to recover better… I’m afraid that eye still cannot see after the surgery.’
B5: ‘I don’t know what the condition of my retina is, do you have the report card from the surgery? What is the condition of my eyes now? Are 800 points of laser considered too much? I am worried that I will see less after the surgery.’
B11: ‘Do I get the PRP treatment next or the anti-VEGF treatment? How can I best maintain my vision?’
Heavy family burden
The course of the disease with DR is long and the condition often recurs. Patients mostly need a combination of PRP, anti-VEGF and vitrectomy treatments. Treatment requires tremendous energy and financial resources, which puts heavy care and financial burdens on patients and their families.
B3: ‘Last year the doctor said it would take 20,000. I only had more than 10,000 in my pocket, so I walked away. This year the eye is really no good, my brothers and sisters lent a little to me to do surgery.’
B12: ‘The doctor told me to do the other eye as well. I’m not blind. I’m not doing it for now. This surgery costs more than 20,000 yuan, and my salary is only 1000 yuan a month.’
In addition, the social roles of DR patients at this age are more complex, as they are both sons and daughters and parents. As sons and daughters, they need to support the elderly; as parents, they must raise their children. The multiple roles make their caregiving burden heavy and many neglect themselves.
B3: ‘My two couples earn 100,000 yuan in school, the children’s school needs 50,000 yuan, the family also needs to spend money, not much money left in a year.’
B9: ‘Our generation is in the situation of “the elderly above and children below”, we are very tired, so we do not have time to pay attention to our own health. It is too late once we get sick.’
The discharge preparation phase: the insufficiency of confidence and the decision to change
Lack of self-care confidence
Most patients with DR have a short hospitalization period. They lack sufficient knowledge about eye care, handling postoperative complications and so on. As the time of discharge approaches, patients become increasingly worried that they will not be able to take good care of themselves and then develop a sense of helplessness.
B7: ‘I still don’t know how to protect my eyes, for example, I want to eat melon seeds and peas, but I don’t know if I can eat them. Are these peas bad for the eyes? I’m afraid that if I don’t take good care of my eyes, they will bleed again.’
B10: ‘Today the doctor said that the surgery was successful, and that post-operative infection should be prevented. But my body is too sick, my body is not immune, my immunity is not as strong as others, and I am afraid of infection when I go home.’
B12: ‘The hospital in our town does not provide ophthalmology services, what should we do if we have problems after discharge? Can we add a WeChat? We can consult when we encounter problems.’
Deciding to make a change for the eyes
After the patients experienced the inconvenience of blurred vision in their work lives and also had a more comprehensive understanding of the cause and treatment of DR, more than half (10/12) of the interviewees said they realized the importance of blood glucose management and decided to make changes.
B6: ‘Before I thought that as long as the hospital was there, I would not be afraid, and I would be able to come to the hospital for treatment. After this surgery, I realize that my previous knowledge of diabetes was very inadequate, and I will put it in my mind in the future.’
B9: ‘I will definitely manage my blood glucose in the future. It comes out of my eyes and directly affects my work, and I’ve got it in mind.’
B11: ‘We must keep our blood glucose under control. If we don’t control it, we may have big problems with our eyes again later. Whether it is high blood glucose or high blood pressure, it may be harmful to the eyes.’
The discharge adjustment phase: eager for professional support and moving forward in exploration
Eager for professional support
DR patients treated with vitrectomy have a long recovery after surgery, while most patients have a short hospitalization period. An inflammatory response such as conjunctival hyperaemia and corneal oedema still occurs within a short period after discharge. Combined with inadequate self-care ability among DR patients, they urgently want to obtain home support services.
C4: ‘I want to listen to online lectures because sometimes there is something uncomfortable in my eyes and I can learn what causes it. …The consultation channels I also need, otherwise, I am panicking when I have a problem. I want someone who knows more about it to help me.’
C11: ‘I felt fine for the first two days after surgery, then I didn’t know what caused my eyes to get red and swollen, and I really wanted to ask the doctor, but I didn’t know who to ask, and I didn’t have the hospital’s phone number, so I stopped the medication.’
C9: ‘I often ask my doctor in charge. We have added WeChat. I ask him any question and he answers me.’
Trouble with low vision and impaired mental health
DR patients whose eyes are filled with silicone oil or gas after surgery still have poor vision. It can make the patient puzzled.
C2: ‘After the surgery on this eye, I still couldn’t see clearly, so I wondered why it was the same before and after the surgery.’
C7: ‘My son and my husband say that I can’t see because of the silicone oil, but I don’t know if that’s the reason.’
At the same time, patients who had high expectations of the surgery before the operation and whose vision recovery was not satisfactory after the surgery will feel a greater sense of psychological disparity. They gradually lose their confidence, and their mental health is impaired.
C6: ‘What is the meaning of my life when I can’t see with my eyes.’
C7: ‘I’m so annoyed that the treatment cost so much money and I can’t see so well. I’m really annoyed.’
C8: ‘Even if the silicone oil is removed, my eyes may still be blind…the vision recovery is so different from what the doctor said before the surgery. I can’t accept it at all.’
Patients did not know how to relieve the pain of impaired vision. However, they did not want to impose it on their family either. Some patients balanced their inner helplessness by complaining about their fate.
C6: ‘I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where the eye problem came from. Why God treated me this way.’
Making changes and moving forward in exploration
Most of the respondents mentioned the importance of blood glucose management, and the vision change made them more alert. They started to explore the experience of eye protection and blood glucose management for themselves.
C5: ‘I also bought a glucometer and an automated sphygmomanometer, and now I’m eating more regularly, and my eating habits have slowly adjusted.’
C8: ‘Since the surgery, I’ve been drinking less, and I’ve taken care of myself. I usually sleep at 11 pm, and I don’t stay up until 2 or 3 am.’
C10: ‘Do not smoke, do not touch the kitchen fumes. Cannot eat spicy and stimulating food, we must protect the eyes after surgery, do not let the sweat flow into the eyes in summer.’
The discharge adaptation phase: courageous acceptance and the positive integration
Compromise acceptance and positive transformation
The effect of postoperative vision recovery in patients with DR is different. After the second surgery, some DR patients continue to have low vision, and the distress of low vision makes them reach their lowest point emotionally, showing a loss of self-worth and self-denial.
D1: ‘I can’t read, I can’t write, and I can’t enjoy the scenery, so I have no interest in life.’
Patients mostly emerge from their negative emotions over time. They actively adjust their mindset, seek knowledge about ophthalmology and have regular reviews. They are hopeful for the future.
D1: ‘I’m lucky to be alive now.’
D3: ‘You are sick, no one else is to blame. If you can be cured, it’s good, if you can’t be cured, you learn to accept it.’
D4: ‘If you really can’t keep your eyes, you have to face it. I go to the endocrinology every month to draw blood and prescribe medication now. I am relieved when the doctor said it is okay.’
Gratitude and active integration
During this period, DR patients gradually change from their previous fear and worry to positive confrontation and gratitude. Most DR patients are trying to reintegrate into their current lives and work.
D5: ‘I was really lucky to meet Director Wu. We are very happy that the surgery was done well. Now I just live my life as usual, watching TV is basically no problem, and I can cook and eat by myself.’
D6: ‘I was a little cranky before, but after the silicone oil was taken, my eyes can see clearly, so I am very happy now. I’m still young. After my eyes rest for some time, I’m going to catch up on my work.’